ohhh yummmm

After awhile of using personal laptop for work. I've finally gotten my work laptop last week. It's Dell XPS M1330 in midnight blue. I'm not so fond of the blue color- blue was never my favourite color. Initially I wanted Red (super-hot) or pink (super-cute and sweet), but they don't have it in stock unfortunately. Okay, I'm not supposed to get excited over it ( since it's for work anyway, and when does work=fun?), but it does kinda cool since it has 2mp camera (for webcam-ing) and DVD writer
( i think im gonna test-try this)...

So, maybe I can take the opportunity to do ehemmmm *not* do backup files on DVDs while I still got the chance. So, first thing first, I've got to burn that 17Gb of picture files. Sayang lah these pictures, memories fade but.. pictures stay clear ( i hope!). Years ago, me and friends were soooo rajin to print out our pictures, not one copy but TWO copies of each roll of film. Printing pictures costs about $3.99 per roll, and to print double copy we only had to add $1, so apa lagi everybody printed two copies. So, what to do with the extra extra copies of pictures? In the end, we toss 'em out by the time we had to move out in May . hehehhe...

Soooo... I was doing some photo organizing (it's by year, btw)... Then I saw my travel pictures... (gazillion years ago) and at that time I was still using 2mp digital camera (hey, at that time 2mp is considered very cangggihhh one and other people were still using manual ones).

***for my travel buddies...

It's me, con and mel's trip in dec 2003 (5 yrs ago!)... This trip is surely a memorable one... To save cost, we had booked 1 occupancy room in hoping to squeeze the 3 (small) of us in the room. Unfortunately, we couldn't do that... Even though we tried to use the excuse "ooh, we're just gonna chit chatting, or come up for a bit", but the guy still said "no, you can't come up to the room" in his accent. Hehehehe... Only I could stay, while mel and con had to find another hotel room. It was a day before new year's eve, and most of the hotels were fully booked. Gettting around was hard enough in the city, and we had to find hotels? Good thing we found a hotelroom just nice for 2..

having breakfast in mel and con's room while con was getting ready... (this was us saving cost by bringing bekal to travel)


new year's eve and we did stay until midnight to welcome 2004... we left the place early to avoid cramped Vaporetti, but... we mistakenly rode one which went to the opposite way, in the end that vaporetti went back to the same place we came from and the crowd came in and filled the ferry anyway...


filling film on a manual SLR camera...that time bawa film sampai 7-8 rolls... hehehhe... after develop, took hoursss to sort out pictures...me and con... in that big bag was a big(quite heavy) tripod so that we could take picture like below =)

we took out tripod even in the middle of places.. hehehe... until other person realized and said "look at them, they have a tripod and everything"

okaaay.. enough with the travel pictures... i must say it's kinda therapeutic to look at old pictures... nowwww, i'm itching for a getaway....

until next update....

10 things....

Heath Ledger who we all (first) know from the movie "10 things i hate about you" is found dead at his apartment this morning. I still remember watching it in high school and there was a heart-melting part when he sang "Can't Take My Eyes off of you" at the stadium to win Julia Stiles back.

He also will appear as Joker in the sequal Batman movie, the Dark Knight scheduled to be released in July this year....

More....

USM student killed in road accident.

USM student killed in road accident

BY SIOW YUEN CHING

PENANG: He was due to join other university heads at a meeting with their new “boss” in the Higher Education Ministry.

However, just as he touched down at the KL International Airport, Universiti Malaysia Sabah vice-chancellor Prof Datuk Mohd Noh Dalimin received a shocking message that forced him to fly to Penang.

His 24-year-old daughter, Maryam (pic), an architecture student at the Universiti Sains Malaysia, has been killed in a road accident at the campus.

Cancelling his meeting with Datuk Mustapa Mohamad, he ended up at the Penang Hospital mortuary to claim her body. Her remains were taken to Kam-pung Sungai Ramal Dalam in Kajang, Selangor, for burial.

Maryam died at about 5.20pm on Saturday after her motorcycle crashed into a road divider. She suffered head injuries.

Prof Mohd Noh, who was too distraught to speak to the media, had taken a flight from Kota Kinabalu the same day to join his colleagues in the Federal capital for a meeting with the newly appointed Higher Education Minister.

USM deputy vice-chancellor (student affairs and development) Assoc Prof Datuk Jamaludin Mohaiadin said Mar-yam was on her way to the Housing, Building and Planning School from her hostel when the accident occurred.

Edisi Utara: 'Saya tak sempat habis belajar'

Edisi Utara: 'Saya tak sempat habis belajar'

Oleh Rudy Syareme Sheriffudin
am@hmetro.com.my

GEORGETOWN: “Saya mungkin tidak sempat habiskan study (pengajian),” begitulah luahan terakhir Allahyarham Maryam Mohd Noh, 24, sebelum meninggal dunia selepas terbabit dalam kemalangan jalan raya, kelmarin.

Mangsa pelajar tahun akhir Ijazah Sarjana Muda jurusan Seni Bina, Universiti Sains Malaysia (USM) mengungkapkan kata-kata itu kepada rakan sekuliahnya, Ayuni Saad, 26, minggu lalu.

Ayuni berkata, arwah sebenarnya tidak menunjukkan sebarang perubahan sebelum ini tetapi sejak kebelakangan, dia terlalu rajin menyiapkan segala tugasan dengan penuh bersemangat dan ceria.

Menurutnya, arwah juga seorang yang bersikap ‘happy go lucky’ dan suka bergurau malah mereka berlima sahaja pelajar perempuan Melayu yang mengikuti kelas seni bina di USM.

Katanya, Allahyarham mempunyai sifat yang disenangi semua rakan sekuliah malah dia juga tidak menunjukkan perubahan pelik kerana sentiasa ceria pada setiap hari.

“Kehilangan arwah cukup dirasai kerana dulu kami berlima kini tinggal berempat dan kata-kata tidak sempat menghabiskan pengajian pada minggu lalu amat mengejutkan kerana akhirnya menjadi kenyataan.

“Sebagai kawan rapat, saya berdoa agar arwah ditempatkan dalam golongan orang yang beriman dan menghalalkan segala makan dan minum selama ini,” katanya ketika dihubungi menerusi telefon bimbit, semalam.

Dalam kejadian itu, Maryam yang juga anak kepada Naib Canselor Universiti Malaysia Sabah (UMS), Profesor Datuk Dr Mohd Noh Dalimin maut selepas motosikal yang ditunggangi terbabas lalu melanggar pembahagi jalan.

Mangsa meninggal dunia di tempat kejadian akibat kecederaan teruk di kepala dan patah tangan kiri dalam kejadian kira-kira jam 5.15 petang di dalam kampus USM.

Semalam, 40 rakan kuliah arwah bersama-sama berlepas ke Kajang, Selangor dari USM kira-kira jam 9.30 pagi untuk menghadiri pengebumian Allahyarham.

Rakan arwah, Rahina Jopri, 26, berkata kehilangan Maryam tidak dapat dicari ganti kerana mempunyai sikap bertimbang rasa dan mudah mesra dengan semua rakan sekuliah baik lelaki dan perempuan.

Menurutnya, kenangan makan dan minum bersama malah tidur bersama-sama dalam studio tetap menjadi kenangan abadi hingga akhir hayatnya sejak mengenali arwah kira-kira lebih setahun lalu.

Katanya, hubungannya dengan arwah amat rapat dan Allahyarham Maryam suka membantu rakan lain membuat tugasan tugasan bersama-sama yang menjadi noktah akhir dengannya.

“Kehilangan Allahyarham cukup dirasai kerana kami memang rapat hingga tidak ada orang lain boleh memisahkan dan dia (arwah) juga seorang yang baik dan kelakar,” katanya.

Jenazah arwah selamat dikembumikan di tanah perkuburan Islam di Kajang, Selangor kira-kira jam 1 tengah hari selepas solat Zuhur dengan dihadiri sahabat handai, kedua ibu bapa arwah, Profesor Datuk Dr Mohd Noh Dalimin dan isteri, Profesor Datin Dr Mariati Mohamad.

©The New Straits Times Press (M) Berhad

Memory of maryam....

I cannot count how many blogs I’ve got since the blog phenomenon. I started one when I was in the middle of depression and deleted it when I’ve felt better because reading one entry saying how I cried endlessly when the printers in library weren’t working. And I haven’t written much since the last 6 months.

But writing can be fun. Pouring your heart out, complaining about people, a chance to be narcissistic, who wouldn’t want that? So here I am. I will try to mantain this blog and make it 'alive' until the end of the year. Let’s see how it turns out.

Last Saturday, I received a SMS from my friend, the sms said, “Assalamualaikum, Maryam passed away ptg tadi. Xcident. –noe”. My heart literally stopped for few seconds. All emotions just came to me. And then I was struck with disbelief. Is this real? Is this a dream? Please let me wake up and see her face again…

It’s been 5 days since she’s gone. I’m still in utter shock. I’m not really sad or been crying badly. Big part of me still can’t believe that she’s really not here. I won’t be seeing her, ever again. I won’t be hearing her voice. I won’t be hearing her, calling me uj**z. I won’t be hugging her and chatting wif her complaining about life. I won’t feel envy because she’s so determined and ambitious that totally makes me intimidated. I haven’t grieved for her, because if I do, that means she’s really gone. Her memories will fade away over time.

OK. Before I go on… Let’s just not talk about fate. How God loves her more than we do. How it’s her time, no matter how small/big the accident, she’s still be dead because it’s her time. I’m not questioning or saying these are not true. It’s just now I realized how those words never helpful to people who are grieving. Because all we want are ears and shoulder to lean on during this difficult time.

Last night, I dreamt about her. She was involved in a car accident. She was put in the trunk of a car, the driver ran away and the car crashed. As any terrible car crash, she didn’t survive.

My mind kept finding the reasons behind the terrible crash. I guess this is called intellectualization, finding explanations to justify the situation. How the motorcycle was ridden too fast and then it lost control, how something was on the road and she was trying to avoid it, or maybe she didn’t even wear a helmet/loose helmet that was how she got a serious head injury. These reasons protecting me from the truth, that she’s not alive. She’s dead.

The last time I saw her was during my sister’s wedding. We didn’t’ talk much. Just exchanged our hellos and some small talk. Can’t believe it would be my last time.

We weren’t really close when I was in the States but we did keep in touch and sometimes chat usually on msn. We would talk about of course career stuff, friendship and relationship. I have always felt lost and second-guessing my career/academic choice. When we talked about this, she said she was lucky to have always known what she wanted to do. She wanted to be an architect. I always thought she’s one of the people who will be successful in her life. She has the passion and determination.

Everytime I look at her friendster, I always ask myself, is this true that she’s not here anymore. And the last day she checked her friendster was her last day. And that will never change. And it could never be 24 hrs.

She was buried in Kajang. For now, I just pray for her that she’ll be in peace; her family will be in peace.

AL-Fatihah…